Potential

I wrote the following on 19th Aug 09:


" i have been having a recurring nightmare. jack nicolson playing his character in the film "as good as it gets" saying to me - what if this is as good as it gets?

i've always been drawn to biting off more than i can chew, in the hope that in that process, i personally grow larger (not physically larger of course!) to accomodate that new goal. mostly, i have done this at work, at the expense of other things, i admit. but life is life and so far i have not thought that it was anything other than, well, as good as it can get. more importantly, i had the belief which i took for granted that the best is yet to come.

i can't help feeling lately, what if the best is already past? how do i make it better? Am i meant to do more, be more, achieve more? can i? if i do, does it make life better?

perhaps this is the kind of mid-life crisis that only single people get? do married people feel more fulfilled? do parents feel more fulfilled? what about other people whose whole life are absorbed by a larger desire, like aung sun su kyi? does she feel fulfilled? 

how do we know that we've done our best to achieve our potential?"


What response have I got now, two very tough years on: 16th April 2011 - don't be a pillar of salt, keep expanding!